loving

It’s hard to love and love full well,
Giving one’s heart, risking its breakage.
It’s hard to give one’s all, and be so vulnerable
As to chance an utter devastation.

It’s hard to make one selfless, weak, and put
Another person’s happiness above one’s one.
It’s hard to willingly be hurt, weep, pine
While floundering in uncertainty and doubt…

It’s hard to live beholden to one’s beloved;
Breathing each breath, as though it’s borrowed.
It’s hard to lie awake and nourish oneself
Only with tears, sighs and gray disquiet.

But how easy to love when the beloved’s sun
Shines bright and one smiling glance is enough
To vapourise all misfortunes, apprehensions,
And answer all questions in the affirmative.

How easy to love when one touch reassures,
A kiss that’s freely given, a priceless treasure;
When blissful joys are shared by two
And raise both lovers clear to heaven!

happiness of getting someone back.

“By night on my bed I sought him whom my soul loveth.” - Bible - Song of Songs, Solomon

A date to remember today, 20102010! Funny how we humans seek patterns and significance in the most insignificant and arbitrary of details… But to be playful is within our nature and to seek order, pattern and rule is part of the joy and curse of being human. I remember lying in bed when a child and gazing at the cracks of the ceiling trying to make out shapes and figures, pictures and whole scenes. Or looking at the clouds and seeing monsters, angels, animals, a thousand objects everyday or fanciful.

I had a phone call from a friend today, with whom I had not spoken for a while. He has been into some great mess lately and was living the life of a emo all over , enjoying it shortly, but then he finally got back to normal. He was ecstatic when he talked to me revealing he had fallen in some silly issues all over again. I shared his happiness with him and we prattled on for a while, until I asked him if everything is back to normal. And then he clouded over, became insecure, stuttered, was tongue-tied in fact and finally admitted that he thought so but had so many doubts…

How hard it is to love! I jotted down a poem and I dedicate it to someone special.

BLACK COFFEE

“Coffee makes us severe, and grave, and philosophical.” Jonathan Swift

The day dawned gray and dreary today, so it was a lazy breakfast with plenty of hot coffee, toast, orange juice and some beautiful classical music on the weekend breakfast show on radio. We then went out and did some grocery shopping and came back to watch a movie. In the evening it was time to relax and listen to some more music, this time with some wine and in a little bluer mood. And then, there’s nothing like strong black coffee just before bed!

when i was high on caffeine

^^

                                  this is the expression that i had on my face the whole time.i have no idea what was the actual reason behind it but the feeling was indeed great.it felt as if i am on the top of the world.anyway,i had psychology paper so i woke up around 4am to study as i knew nothing about it at all.i got freshened up as soon as i could,made breakfast and some coffee for myself.i started off with "drugs" chapter when i came across a line which said"Ingestion of the amount of caffeine in one or two cups of coffee causes many mild physiological effects."

it kinda seemed interesting because i've been having coffee since so long and nothing has happened to me yet.i was afraid i'd fall asleep while writing paper.i studied for like,3 hours and  had 3 cups of coffee =P

                                   It was 7 so i had to leave home.i don't know why but i was in such a cherished mood,you have no idea.i had studied only 2 answers and luckily those two questions came.thanks to jiten who really encouraged me and scared me at the same time =P I was so exhilarated.i happily wrote how much i knew and got done with it in an hour.i hope i at least get through in this paper because i am already flunking 3 paper *giggles* i later met my friends in the canteen.even their paper was awesome as one of my friends had chits =P even they were shocked to see me in such a jolly mood =D everything seemed so perfect.i hung around a bit and returned back home.

                                    As soon as i returned home,i told mom about it but mom thought its due to lack of sleep that i've been getting lately because of my exams going on.i giggled and i went away.i hogged something and was just chilling out.suddenly,i started feeling so restless and suffocating,i don't know why.then i realized it could be because of access of caffeine.hence,the effect didn't last so long and i decided to crash down =P a

                                 this way,i really realized that i could be high even on caffeine =P

Letting Go...

Two things happen when you let go of something; you feel the pain of its absence more acutely or you feel the freedom from the weight it once possessed in your life...

Rat Poison

I'm really bothered by the poison behind that building. Not for the fact that it's meant to kill the rats, I'm not against that. The building is in an industrial area, FCI so I can see how they would want to control an animal like a rat. 


I'm really bothered by the poison behind that building. Not for the fact that it's meant to kill the rats, I'm not against that. The building is in an industrial area, FCI so I can see how they would want to control an animal like a rat. 


But how many other animals will be affected by this poison? Birds and predators? Untargeted animals eating the bait? Is this a common way to control rat problems?


How about the fact that this IS in an area surrounded by food chain distributors... is there a possibility of this contaminating any human food in any way? 


I wonder if there is a better way? 


A post full of questions, I'll have to look into the answers when I have time.

The Red Night

Tonight is very long,
Longer than last night,
Longer than ever,
And may be longer than tomorrow.

Tonight i leave the place that I'll remember for my entire life,
Tonight I've become real man because the sky is dark,
Darken than last night,
Darken than ever,
The stars more further,
Further than last night..

Tonight, I'll create a future
Future for tomorrow night,
But i can't,
I lost,
I cry,
And I ponder,

Yes, i ponder,
And there's the answer,
That I've already know,
I've already learned,
I've already answered.

The red world,
The red sky,
The red blood,
The red life,
It's all about my memories.

I never lie
Because i don't want you to cry.